MONDAY, NOVEMBER 2, 1942
Dear Kitty,
Bep stayed s sleep very o report. I erday and to bed early. Margots being exasperating again.
ting out an index card file from td fallen over and gotten all mixed up. Before long I s. I asked Margot and Peter to too lazy, so I put it away.
Im not crazy enougo do it all by myself!
Anne Frank
PS. I forgot to mention tant ne Im probably going to get my period soon. I can tell because I keep finding a ed it art soon. I can . Its sucous event. too bad I cant use sanitary napkins, but you cant get tampons can be used only by be able to e t kind of thing anymore.
No Im rereading my diary after a year and a my c innocent again, o be. I can understand ts about Margot, Motten terday, but I cant imagine ina so openly about otters. It embarrasses me areatly to read ts t I remembered as beina nicer tually ions are so indelicate. But enoua.
I can also understand my je. time Ive been times consciously for trust, love and
pion. tensity, but its alhere.
thURSDAY, NOVEMBER 5, 1942
Dear Kitty,
tisalingrad fallen yet, so tea t, noto report.
t and doing little s t to be. ts surely to success.
Motting along better lately, but very open about
tove a feire room is still filled ral ing, and Im probably not ts a stinker (t), a constant source of irritation, morning, noon and night.
Anne Frank
SAtURDAY, NOVEMBER 7, 1942
Dearest Kitty,
Mot doesnt bode just a coincidence t Fat and al nig iful illustrations; s up and put ter. I doing anyt up and began looking at tures. Margot carne back, sa;; book in my ted ed to look t some more. Margot got madder by te, and Motted in:
quot;Margot book; give it back to her.”
Fat even kno Margot me: quot;Id like to see one of your books!”
I promptly gave in, put to t t; I merely sad.
It rigo pass judgment knoo Margot myself, and a lot sooner, if Fat intervened and ruso take Margots part, as if s injustice.
Of course, Motook Margots side; take eaco it t Ive become completely indifferent to Mots moodiness. I love t only because t. I dont give a darn about ts different ial to Margot, approving Margots every action, praising er Fathe world I love more.
realize t reats Margot differently t just o be test, t, ttiest and t. But I to be taken seriously too. Ive alo pay double for my sins: once isfied ion or talks. I long for somet jealous of Margot; I never envious of y. Its just t Id like to feel t Fat because Im because Im me, Anne.
I cling to Fatempt of Mots only t Im able to retain t ounce of family feeling I . understand t I sometimes need to vent my feelings for Mot to talk about it, and Motcomings, is tougo deal kno very edness, yet I cant continue to take thing.
Im te of Mot mean to judge rig a moto me -- I o mot myself adrift from ting my o seem to find anyt in to call quot;Mother.”
I tell myself time and again to overlook Mot to see s, and to look inside myself for doesnt part is t Fat realize tting me dos who can make
tely happy?
Sometimes I trying to test me, boture. Ill o become a good person on my o anyone to serve as a model or advise me, but itll make me stronger in the end.
me is ever going to read tters? me can I turn to for comfort? Im frequently in need of consolation, I often feel en t, I fail to meet expectations. I knoo do better.
t consistent in treatment of me. One day t Annes a sensible girl and entitled to kno t Annes a silly goose imagines so knotle darling o articulate t.
Oo my nigo put up abide or my intentions. ts art ttys alient. I promise , despite everyt Ill find my o once, receive encouragement from someone who loves me.
Dont condemn me, but times reacing point!
Yours, Anne
MONDAY, NOVEMBER 9,1942
Dearest Kitty,
Yesterday ers birteentairs by eiger and I looked at s. te lig t at all; it just looks so distinguished.
t surprise came from Mr. van Daan, one t tunis, Algiers, Casablanca and Oran.
quot;t; everyone Ciser, ;t t is not even t it is, per; Do you see timism. Stalingrad, ty t tack for till fallen into German hands.
In true spirit of talk to you about food. (I s ttons up on top floor.)
Bread is delivered daily by a very nice baker, a friend of Mr. Kleimans. Of course,
its enougion books on t. ts already risen from 27 to 33 guilders. And t for mere ss of printed paper!
to provide ourselves rition t ored t just for us, but for taff as entrance, but a fe under t. So o move to ttic, and Peter rusted ing.
o get five of tairs intact and one flying tairs. Since t fifty pounds of beans in t sack, it made enougo raise tairs ter unned, but t into peals of lauganding at ttom of tairs, like an island in a sea of bro my ankles. e promptly began picking t beans are so small and slippery t to every conceivable corner and ime airs, Mrs. van Daan h a handful of beans.
I almost forgot to mention t Father has recovered from his illness.
Yours, Anne
P.S. t announced t Algiers ing for tunis.
tUESDAY, NOVEMBER 10, 1942
Dearest Kitty,
Great neo take an eigo h us!
Yes, really. e al t er burden on Mr. Kugler and Mr. Kleiman.
But since reports of to tting o sound out tlemen, and t it plan. quot;Its just as dangerous, ; ted rigtled, doally tances, trying to come up ended family. t difficult. After Fated all tives, named Alfred Dussel. ian lady younger t married, but ts beside t. o be quiet and refined, and ance o be nice. Miep knos. If o sleep in my room instead of Margot, er Dussel arrived, Margot slept in s bedroom.] ell ask o bring along someto fill cavities h.
Yours, Anne
thURSDAY, NOVEMBER 12, 1942
Dearest Kitty,
Miep came to tell us t so see Dr. Dussel. sered t;t o go into urday, but ted to bring o date, settle s and attend to a couple of patients. Miep relayed to us t t o so long. All tions require explanations to various people o be kept in t to ask if Dr. Dussel couldnt manage to come on Saturday after all, but o arrive on Monday.
I ts odd t jump at our proposal. If treet, it ients, so whe delay? If you ask
me, its stupid of Fato humor him.
Otherwise, no news.
Yours, Anne
tUESDAY, NOVEMBER 17, 1942
Dearest Kitty!
Mr. Dussel smootold o be at a certain place in front of t office at 11 A.M., ed place at ted time. Mr. Kleiman up to ting to meet o come and asked o drop by to see Miep. Mr. Kleiman took a streetcar back to the office while Mr.
Dussel follo.
It y o remove , so tar couldnt be seen, and brougo te office, ext t te office ook Mr. Dussel upstairs, opened tepped inside, w.
In time, ted ourselves around table to a test addition to our family led o tely recognized our furniture, but airs, just above old onised. t leave brougairs. Mr. Dussel sank into a cared at us in dumbstruck silence, as t rututtered, quot;Aber . . . but are you nico, t coming?
Your escape working?”
e explained to ely spread to t come looking for us off track. Mr. Dussel gaze around in surprise as of our lovely and ultrapractical Annex. e all ogetook a s nap, joined us for tea, put ao bring o feel muc he following
typeten rules and regulations for t Annex (a van Daan production):
PROSPECtUS AND GUIDE tO t ANNEX A Unique Facility for temporary Accommodation of Jeed in beautiful, quiet, of Amsterdam. No private residences in ty. Can be reacreetcar 13 or 17 and also by car and bicycle. For to ation ies, it can also be reac. Furnisments are available at all times, meals.
Price: Free.
Diet: Lo.
Runnina er in tside oves for ing.
Ample storage space for a variety of goods. two large, modern safes.
Private radio line to London, Neel Aviv and many otations. Available to all residents after 6 P.M. No listening to forbidden broadcasts, ain exceptions, i.e., German stations may only be tuned in to listen to classical music. It is absolutely forbidden to listen to German neins (regardless of ted from) and to pass to others.
Rest o 7:30 A.M.; 10:15 A.M. on Sundays. Oo circumstances, residents are required to observe rest ime ed to do so by t. to ensure ty of all, rest be strictly observed!!!
Free-time activities: None alloside til furtice.
Use of language: It is necessary to speak softly at all times. Only thus no German.
Reading and relaxation: No German books may be read, except for ture. Otional.
Calisthenics: Daily.
Singing: Only softly, and after 6 P.M.
Movies: Prior arrangements required.
Classes: A any . Payment in tutoring, e.g., Dutch.
Separate department for ts (ion of vermin, for ws are required).
Mealtimes:
Breakfast: At 9 A.M. daily except approximately 11:30 A.M.
on Sundays and holidays.
Lunc meal. From 1:15 P.M. to 1:45 P.M.
Dinner: Mayor not be a meal.
Mealtime depends on nes.
Obligations to ts must be prepared to all times. Batub is available to all residents after 9 A.M.
on Sundays. Residents may batce office or front office, as they choose.
Alcohol: For medicinal purposes only.
the end.
Yours, Anne
thURSDAY, NOVEMBER 19, 1942
Dearest Kitty,
Just as , Mr. Dussel is a very nice man. Of course mind sharing a
room o be , Im not exactly delig ranger use my t you o make sacrifices for a good cause, and Im glad I can make t;If doesnt matter,quot; said Fately right.
t day Mr. Dussel ions -- for example, ime to to use to go to toilet. You may laug t so easy in a ime make any noise t migairs, and ra careful. I patiently explained all to Mr. Dussel, but I o see o catcill cant remember old him.
Maybe confused by t over it. Othing is going fine.
Mr. Dussel old us muc tside ances aken off to a dreadful fate. Niger nigary vereets. tely taken a, to t s impossible to escape tco en go around s, knocking only on to be made. tly offer a bounty, so mucs like ts of t mean to make ligs mucoo tragic for t. In ts dark, I often see long lines of good, innocent people, accompanied by crying c by a til t h.
ere so fortunate urmoil. e o give a moments t to all t for t t t t friends are dropping from exion or being knocked to the ground.
I get frig t monsters ever to stalk th.
And all because theyre Jews.
Yours, Anne
FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 20, 1942
Dearest Kitty,
e dont really kno. Up to notle ne t it best to stay as co mention her or Mrs.
van Daan art to cry, so s ter not to say any more. But ions, and tories o tell get t of our ime to digest to our usual joking and teasing. It do us or tside any good if inue to be as gloomy as of turning t Annex into a Melancholy Annex?
No matter tc its a disgrace to be so c am I supposed to spend t do t. this gloom will pass.
Added to t of a more personal nature, and it pales in comparison to t told you about. Still, I cant elling you t lately Ive begun to feel deserted. Im surrounded by too great a void. I never used to give it muc, since my mind ime. No un myself. Its taken a Fatter take t comes to my feelings, Mot ceased to count long ago.
But eful, Kitty, I kno ime and o t as well, my o reel!
Yours, Anne
SAtURDAY, NOVEMBER 2g, 1942
Dearest Kitty,
eve been using too mucricity and ion. t:
excessive economy and t of ricity cut off. No ligeen days; ts a pleasant t, isnt it? But be so long! Its too dark to read after four or four-ty, so ivities: telling riddles, doing calister a erday I discovered a neime: using a good pair of binoculars to peek into ted rooms of tains cant be opened, not even an inc ts so dark.
I never kne neigeresting. Ours are, at any rate. Ive come across a fe dinner, one family making ist across tened old lady.
Mr. Dussel, to get along so o absolutely adore turned out to be an old-fasoo narroo be t bes all I can do to avoid ions repeatedly flung at my o pretend not to be so bad if Mr. Dussel sucattletale and singled out Moto be t of s. If Mr. Dussels just read me t act, Motures me all over again, time t me.
And if Im really lucky, Mrs. van D. calls me to account five minutes later and lays dohe law as well!
Really, its not easy being t-up center of attention of a family of nitpickers.
In bed at niged scomings, I get so confused by t of to consider t I eitrange feeling of ing to be different t t to be, or perly t to be.
Ooo. Forgive me, but I dont like crossing t, and in times of scarcity, tossing aaboo. So I can only advise you not to reread to make no attempt to get to ttom of it, because youll never find your again!
Yours, Anne