CHAPTER 14

类别:文学名著 作者:乔治·艾略特 本章:CHAPTER 14

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    o sleep, Stepoo omed amount of roense in too restless to sleep,  to midnig seeing ter - ars - living only in tant future. At last fatigue conquered restlessness, and arpauling on t. Sest  of a midsummer daybreak er epar appeared, t greill t ed in St Oggs boat, and it came nearer and nearer till tman  looking at o stretc o  turned over  and to sink, till o a really angry. From t false o ter against tstep on tarlit sky. t of utter be before  disentangled from t soon terrible trutself upon ep by  must blot ted - s sorroo to t  up rust and love. t ure  recoiled from - breac ties t o duty, and la t lead  led o t temptation. S it no t ed. t least t from all riving after t and best - t rayed, beguiled, ensnared, could never deliberately consent to a c? O God - not a c of conscious cruelty and o see before rust and ep for ever sink and ain impulse; for s go t clue

    ecstasy; s face to face no sad patient living strengt ts bro yesterday  endurance s cross .

    Daybreak came and tern lig life igc moments of possible rescue. Sepill fast asleep, and  of  found its  bitterness of parting - t t urged t in give to  surmounting everyt   rise to energy till it oo late. - too late! It oo late no to oo late for everyt to rus act of baseness - tasting of joys t were wrung from cruss.

    tarted up  a day of resistance  ears, as,  looking at tepoo, and, getting up from o sit beside inct of anxious love sao give  glance. ance in Maggies nature t o overcome.   freedom yesterday: too mucive  to feel t if  o reproach him.

    But Maggie did not feel t rigoo conscious of fatal enderness t comes ing a  do of possible parting oget tains assurance t t Mudport by five oclock, eac in  ed to to dissipate - in  e resolve on ly to tigepinually, ty at tigue and discomfort so landing and to tion and repose sing to assure ely by pre-supposing t everyt. For a long ed  ss rest, and t s mind about being on t  like being on t tle less pleasant t on t a suppressed resolve ray itself in tep Maggie irely lost  did not dare, to speak of ter it, and teps ake to inform , of  assent from  eacime  ronger dread of t sadness  .

    ` of Mudport,  last. `No, urning to of your fatigue is over. On tness. In anotoget  to you after this.

    Maggie felt it ime to speak - it o assent by silence. S tone, as  inct decision.

    `e s be togeted.

    to Stephens face.

    `e s, .

    It  neito say anotill t  doaken to ter of gazers and passengers aing ture of teamboat to St Oggs. Maggie ep some one oer as if o speak to  s to everyt trial.

    A porter guided to t inn and postingepook no notice of to so a room w down.

    ered, Maggie did not sit doepe determination in it,  to ring the bell, when she said, in a firm voice,

    `Im not going,  part here.

    `Maggie, urning round toure beginning, `Do you mean to kill me?  is t nohing is done.

    `No, it is not done, said Maggie - `too mucrace of. But I  try to prevail  cerday.

    , and make a new barrier. y.

    `Maggie,  last, pausing before one of imploring cy -  I did yesterday. - I  your full consent. But dont bligy t can anso any one - t can only create ne do -  - t you are going to do. Dont treat me as if you couldnt trust me.

    effective appeal; but Maggies o suffer.

    `e must not , s distinct voice. `e must part at once.

    `e cant part, Maggie, said Stepuously. `I cant bear it.  is ting t misery on me? tever it may ruck no  you should drive me mad?

    `I  begin any future, even for you, said Maggie, tremulously, `e consent to o  I told you at Basset I feel noo temptation. It er if   part now.

    `e  part, Step out, instinctively placing  tting everyts before. `I  endure it. Youll make me desperate - I s know w I do.

    Maggie trembled. S t ting could not be effected suddenly. S rely on a sloo Stepter self - s be prepared for a ask t of rusion epc look of desperation  like t of a frig t opposition  ermination groronger.

    `Remember   - t o ot conquer every inclination  debt. e o keep our resolutions - but the same.

    `No, it does not remain tep it o keep our resolutions. e  torong to be overcome. t natural las every ot  it clash.

    `It is not so, Stepe sure t is o t again and again - but I see, if   for all treacy -  sacred ties t can ever be formed on eart is not to bind us, ion of t.

    `But ties t cant be kept by mere resolution, said Steparting up and  again. ` is outancy  love?

    Maggie did not ansely. Sest. At last se assertion of ion as muc  him,

    `t seems rig first - but  rigancy mean somet is easiest and pleasantest to ourselves. tever is opposed to tever o t on us. If er, nobler - trongly present  t so continually, just as ts e feeling  a pain to myself t emptation. O, hink of her...

    Maggies voice ting ctered t words.

    `I cant tepamping as if  you. Maggie, you demand of a man  t once - but I cant go back to it no to torture me? You cant save tear yourself from me, and make my life o me. And even if s - if t   love. e ake.

    A deep flus speak. Step doaking  e entreaty.

    `Maggie! Dearest! If you love me, you are mine.  a claim on you as I  t can annul our rigo eac is t time we  and soul.

    Maggie ill silent for a little er of neriump s   - not h yielding.

    `No - not  and soul, Stepimid resolution, `I ed to it ions, and longing after perfect goodness, t rong  me for long - to me - repentance. I couldnt live in peace if I put t I ely consented to it - I ;t I may ; It o marry you - if you o  from tary triump o time before yesterday, I rue to my calmer affections and live  the joy of love.

    Stepiently, he room in suppressed rage.

    `Good God!  out, at last, `o a mans. I could commit crimes for you - and you can balance and c  you dont love me - if you it I  o you to t of sacrificing me. But it weig you are robbing me of my lifes happiness.

    Maggie pressed oget convulsively as s terror  flasning, and tretche darkness.

    `No - I dont sacrifice you - I couldnt sacrifice you, s I cant believe in a good for you, t I feel - t o c tell  or rue to all tives t sanctify our lives. I kno belief is   I  t if I let it go for ever, I s this life.

    `But Maggie, said Steping  possible you dont see t ion of t infatuation is it - inate prepossession t blinds you to t? It is too late to say ing t vie  act on noion is altered - t course is no longer   accept our oions and start afreserday? It is nearly t on ot . It epterly, `t you mig your tie to me ronger to others.

    Again a deep flus. Step again t o prevail -  believed t  prevail: ties ely for us to fear them.

    `Dearest, , tenderest tone, leaning toing  - duty must spring out of t no t t - it is so long since--

    Maggies eyes opened errified look at t o arted up - pale again.

    `O I cant do it s of agony - `Step ask me - dont urge me. - I cant argue any longer - I dont kno my   let me do it. I see - I feel trouble no is as if it y me - and no ter your love to me - I do care for P o eac of me as to me t I mig less rusted me more t marry you - I cannot take a good for myself t  of t is not t ougo rule us - t  my past life o me. I cant set out on a fres t - I must go back to it, and cling to it, - else I s.

    `Good God, Maggie! said Stepoo and grasping  marrying me? You dont kno. You see not really is.

    `Yes, I do. But to t. Dear - dear Step me go! - dont drag me into deeper remorse. My  does not consent now.

    Step go unned by despairing rage.  a fes, not looking at urned to last ill  looking at her,

    `Go, t torture me any longer - I cant bear it.

    Involuntarily so o touc  as if it had been burning iron, and said again,

    `Leave me.

    Maggie  conscious of a decision as surned a gloomy averted face - and  of t omatic action t fulfils a forgotten intention.  came after? A sense of stairs descended as if in a dream - of flagstones - of a canding - treet, and a turning into anotreet aking in passengers - and ting t t t coacake oo the coach.

    rials - ouary ep, as suco urge all ots into activity. But among s,  y and remorseful anguis no room for t.

    taking o York - fart s learn t until s doy at midnig ter: sart  day. S,  - a bank-note and a sovereign: s it in  from forgetfulness, after going out to make purcerday.

    Did s nig unent sacrifice? - t struggles of life are not so easy as t - t problems of life are not so clear. - In t nigepurned toence an easy floating in a stream of joy instead of a quiet resolved endurance and effort: - t o receive it once more and t seemed to slip away and fade and vanis said, `Gone - for ever gone.


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