I s to recover its activity; my ts, like rays of ligruggling till confused and imperfect; attimes I felt a return of ted, so to speak, beternate fits of mentalwandering and consciousness.
Sometimes everyto me, like t inguiser, tle, even ttage perc of , and all is confused and indistinct.
to tions of a o follos various impulses troubling myself toseparate tly from one to ts succeeded closely upon oneanother.
Noled state, see, underneats loud ticking, a female figureappears before me!
At first sigo satisfy me t s a daug flasar, and ruggle. Sest and t sombre hered garland in her hand.
After emplated s, I asked brougo my attic. s of turned toward me, and she replied:
quot;You see in me t drao its end; I come toreceive your t;
I raised myself on my elboterresentment.
quot;A t; cried I; quot;but first let me know w for?
quot;ill young and vigorous: you aken from me eactle of my strengting an illness upon me; already, to you, my blood is less less agile ted ty in my bosom; ttles of oldage!
quot;And, as if it enougo you ed, and no is o my outence, see to, and misery you ! quot;For t t me co taken care oft find my closetsempty, my bookcase ,stripped, all my poor treasures lost ty? s I cultivated, ttic is despoiled, silent and solitary! quot;As itis only for t fes t I urned to a consciousnessof ;And ers, for time of t pressing, can t me, ried to do so? Peruation by er of time--w brougunes upon me:
strengt, taken all from me. I rage and loss from t t to claim mygratitude!
quot;A die despised and cursed; andmay I e on tomb tap inscribed upon tof a king:
quot;Rejoice, t live again.quot;
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After my pulse, do t oft me, rubbing tisfaction or.
quot;ell! so ed old snub-nose to carry us off?quot; said M. Lambert, in; t o least!quot;
quot;tor?quot; asked I, rather alarmed.
quot;Not at all,quot; replied t;e cant give up ; and I make it a rule never to instruments in tend ;
quot;May ; cried I; quot;and may my ;
M. Lambert shrugged his shoulders.
quot;Begin by asking yourself for it,quot; resumed ly. quot;God you, and it is your o c must keep it foryou. One o alk, t sickness comes upon uslike t one o say in tter. Before o be ;
I to smile, but tor looked angry.
quot;A I am joking,quot; resumed ;buttell me, ttention t o rengtravagance or foolisions in ts of your mode of living as you do of your income?
Do you consider every evening o tion of yourexpenditure? You may smile; but brougions?quot;
I began to protest against to point out tions. tor spread out oreckon upon them one by one.
quot;Primo,quot; cried ; of exercise. You live air, motion, or cly, tes badly, tive, do notclaim trition, tomache brain growsweary.
quot;Secundo. Irregular food. Caprice is your cook; your stomac accept , but akes a sullenrevenge, like all slaves.
quot;tertio. Sitting up late. Instead of using t for sleep, youspend it in reading; your bedstead is a bookcase, your pillows a desk!
At time turnal orgies, and you are surprised to find it t day.
quot;Quarto. Luxurious s. S up in your attic, you insensiblysurround yourself e indulgences. You must for your door, a blind for your for your feet, aneasy-cuffed at tsign of cold, and a so your lamp; and to all tions, t draugc, and you must acles to support t of day.
You you s, and you racted infirmities.
quot;Quintoquot;
quot;Aor!quot; cried I. quot;Pray, do not carry yourexamination fart attaco eac;
tor rubbed h his snuffbox.
quot;You see,quot; said ly, and rising at time, quot;you rut you areguilty. entem reum! But at least, my friend, do not goon laying time, like an old ;
t my pulse, and took ion an end, and t t depended upon myself.
or about reflecting upon w he had said.
Altoo s true in ten ion he had begun.
But is t anotance--t during t my courage and my arms efficient? S review of souls w pass before ?
Darest ten terred?
First, t erred t duly valued too deeply of toxicating y; I o love mensolely because ts; Iracted tion only. t to is composed of mybrot pass by , vain of mytrifling knoellect as ot of dress; I take credit for a giftourn tune into ao attack others.
A days of revolutions, ignorance ed andraised a cry of red against genius, t is not alone in t comes in part, too, from temptuous pride of knowledge.
Alas! I oo completely forgotten themagician of Bagdad.
One of truck by an irrevocable decree of destiny, er, proud ofages, laug o go out h him.
quot;to ; said ;since t notion is a stage, is only an obscureabyss, at ttom of to tar s;
it ao crybitterly. ely ran to riedto console o give ever he desired.
quot;Can you give me sig; asked the child.
quot;Fate does not permit it,quot; said the magician.
quot;t; cried t;I ask you to put out t;
provoked t ofsome one of my brot see?
But ener y and of t!
ions aken at random! s ticism! done any sense of my responsibility! ter part of men tation of anoters along a roying t beautiful flowers.
And, nevert is by tlessness t ted. It rises gradually, like one of teriousmounds in barbarous countries, to as being able o see . o see s o view?
Some time ago I martre telegrapands. Beloed myattention. t, ; and ick in range figures in to me convulsed appeared to me t ening tsening to ouc.
times sured a feless in ttempt tojustify tcoat began again immediatelyeningevolutions in to catcil he hill.
I ly just seen one of tic tyrants ed by tience of tims, and gods of a family, co be tormentors.
I cursed t, and I felt indignant t t t be punisurned t top of the slope.
t glance, and o me: inplace of ones and terrible looks of anangry man, and ttitude of a frigim, I citizen, uttered, but o tentive daughter.
I turned my mistake; but before I reaced in tion to a distant column of flame.
A manufactory aken fire, and everybody in extinguis.
I ated. Nig tired; a favorite book ing me; I t t of on myway.
Just before I of consideration; no was fromselfishness and cowardice.
But ten ties time I y ? alice, and like t claimed successively everyso ask me to return some littleportion, I get provoked, I am angry, I try to escape from it by everymeans. imes, reet, gone out of my compassion unes of ot I migice against them.
it satisfaction imes verified to s he deserves!
O us not go fart us not go farterrupted tors examination, but y t the soul.
I was urbed in my reverie by my neighe old soldier.
No, I seem alo imes leaning against my bed, andsometimes sitting at able, surrounded by s of pasteboard.
come in , scissors. I called tered a joyfulexclamation, and came near me.
quot;ell! so t is found again!quot; cried aking my t ;it been trouble,I can tell you; to wo clasps in.
I ter Leipsic, I omact all out of itself. But edty-eigtle Corporals campaigns.quot;
quot;I am not mistaken t;
quot;ell! I o cross t made youa bad nurse for of t; but, ba kno prevent t beggar of a fever from beingdrooer.quot;
to laugoo muced tospeak, pressed my breast. ion, andened to put an end to it.
quot;By-t from to-day you to draions again,quot; resumed ;four meals, like tor is your e;
quot;e must find too,quot; replied I, h a smile.
quot;S; said teran.
quot;;
quot;Genevieve.quot;
quot;t-;
quot;alking s fear ter or trouble. As long as life and deating for you, t airs to learn . And, stay, I am sure t;
In fact to open the door.
quot;O; continued ;it is Mot, our portress, anotices I recommend to you.
Come in, Mot--come in; e bonny boys to step a minuet if we ;
tress came in, quite delig my linen, le bottle of Spanis of for great occasions. I ext t toro speak. I satentive lybeen t straig on sickness.
As s time, t I o beconvalescent. t me a ne.
It o relate minutely all my illness to everydetail stered loud exclamations; tress my dinner; eacook isfaction and ted sucion amongtators.
As taking tered in urn.
I could not prevent my beating as I recognized did o tell me?
I ed y for o speak; but doook my saying a our masters. I could not endure tainty any longer.
quot;And t; asked I, atingly, quot;aken--terruption to my ;
quot;terruption,quot; replied tly.
quot; do you mean?quot;
quot;Eacook a sy; all ;
too mucer so many instances of affection, t restrain my tears.
to do for ottle seed, and everygrain forth a whole sheaf. Ah!
tes tor gave me. If it is true t t of our follies andour vices, sympation are also ty. Every one of us, sof y, ion, cer, andpermanent condition.
Everybody is gone; t me back my floting sun reddens my ains s last rays. My brain is clear, and my lig floats before my eyes, and I feel myself in tate which precedes a refreshing sleep.
Yonder, opposite t time I my o eful smile.
quot;Adieu, beloved year! ly accused. t be laid to t but a tract t my road--a ground seen me enjoy; I seen me endure. Neit t been to eternity, and be blest, t left me experience int memories instead of past time, and gratitude aspayment for good offices.quot;