o begin my researc at ed by t of boredom or anxiety or fear o to flick tes and annotations. Bet lives ally neutral lines. It , and ell you o tell you o ter t at nig all. , t moved me so in tations of t t t nohey were dead.
Reading t a stirring in me. In me, but not of me. Reading ts, t of me t her side woke and caressed me.
I never explained to anyone my fatook note of my preference, and auction, o get t all trious dead of try, going back many generations, erlife tranquilly on th me for company.
It , t I turned ter’s grandfat a baronet, nor a minister, nor a bis still, ocratic origins—title, but a feions earlier t in title y anoty side. tended to folloitles, but still, tion an entry, so e of birt Angelfield o Matracing er years, I found an amendment a decade later: one son, Cer, Isabelle. After a little more page-turning, I found confirmation of George Angelfield’s death and, by looking her up under March, Roland, Isabelle’s marriage.
For a moment it amused me to t I o Yorkso er’s story, tarted t did it prove, trail? Only t suced. to say t Miss inter found ted could look t s of names and dates and embroidered a story around to entertain herself?
Alongside trail for Isabelle came to an end. trees, blood mixed by marriage passed from one generation to t, making an ever- of connections. titles, on to one man, and it to . On eacitle line o fall ion. t . And, t said, till mig string of tragedies o occur. But after a certain number of brancree, t of to tion of so restore to prominence. ts limits. So it a lord) ; so t ocean of ordinary people, oo insignificant to be erity.
Cretcself— just—to include ing its sion . Angelfield. married. dead. As far as tion .
I took out one volume after anotcome I t, t. But eacill Cill of Angelfield, still unmarried. I t again about er old me about Cer, and bit my lip t w his long bachelorhood signified.
And te forties, I found a surprise. e of birtrange abbreviation—Ldd—t I iced before.
I turned to table of abbreviations.
Ldd: legal decree of decease.
turning back to Cry, I stared at it for a long time, froermark of tself tion of tery.
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I closed t it back in its position on t doo to make cocoa.
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tomer cards. “to ask. Retired professor of la you e? You migs me to Justitiae Naturalis Principia for time.”
back to to find out Roland Marc and o t ory section to follo raits, of fasimer’s Englisraiture contained tion of an early portrait by Leitled Roland, nepist. It is an odd to look into t quite yet a man, in searcures of an old es I studied ures, of his head.
ting my time. ere I to look all day and all nig find a trace of twins o hered.